The Bank Heist That Broke Me | Red Dead Redemption 2 | Blind Reaction and Playthrough [15]

There's a certain grief and heaviness that came with this part of the game that I didn't expect. I don't know if I've ever been driven to the edge of a panic attack, or gone into a state of shock, purely because of a video game before. I've experienced sadness in games, and loss that destroyed me, but this was a level of grief that sank into my very bones.

I finished recording this video and ended up staring blankly at my ceiling, unable to get to sleep. Somehow the pain set in even more after I had time to sit with it, and think about what happened. I made it through playing it, but for some reason, living with it AFTER I finished filming was actually harder than seeing it the first time. Usually I can recover after a few hours of watching something sad, or cheer myself up at least a little bit, but I've been on the edge of tears ever since I finished playing, and it's been a good couple of days since then. I was driving in my car yesterday when a sad song came on, and I just broke down into tears because I couldn't stop thinking of this game.


I genuinely think that it's because I've spent SO many hours immersed in this world- walking alongside these characters that FEEL like real people, with real lives and emotions. I'm an empathetic person, and all I can think of is how Arthur must feel.


Because for me, it felt like my world was falling apart around me, and yet I was thrown into more chaos and expected to just keep going. How are we supposed to move on from this? Everything is going wrong, and I can't fix it, and that just devastates me. I want this little family to be put back together again, so I can sit and watch as they sing around the campfire and make fun of one another, and love each other dearly. But I can't. All I can do is continue on this wild ride of a game, and hope for the best.


It's truly a testament to this game and how amazing it is, that each loss feels like a real person that I love is being ripped away from me too soon. There's a weight on my chest that I just can't shake off, and yet all I want to do is keep playing this damn game. It's incredible. The fact that I can feel genuine grief, that doesn't leave me as I try and go about my day to day life, on the behalf of fictional characters? That's an unbelievable feat on the part of those who created this world for us, and I am so grateful. I may be a sad little shell of a human being in this video, who can't do much else other than make ugly faces because I'm trying so hard not to cry, but I'm still so grateful.


Ugh. I love you guys.


Love each other and be kind. It's what video game Dad would have wanted for us 😭




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