I was a transgender child.

man why did this actually make me cry 😭🙏

Thank you for telling your story. I wish more people were willing to approach gender issues by relating lived experience, rather than by relating theories of gender, or gender vs. sex, and prescribing or proscribing ideas or behaviors.

What bothers me is that I don't see this phenomenon being studied as to WHY it happens, especially now when there are so many trans people coming out. Even though many cultures throughout history have had cultural categories for people who were seen as neither male nor female, or as both, the seemingly great increase in today's world seems to me like something that needs to be understood better. Especially since the recommended solution is becoming a lifelong customer of the medical/pharmaceutical/hospital industry.

At the basic level, sex exists for a reason: the propagation of the species. That's the natural function of having male and female individuals of the same species; that's how Mother Nature set it up. So if more individuals are being born who don't fit into that paradigm, then something has happened to interrupt that plan. Mother Nature (or God, if that's your preference) doesn't deliberately create people for whom living their authentic self necessitates lifelong medication and surgeries.

I never found a video that speeds so much to me, that I watched that for the 3rd or 4th time within the last year 🫶

Gender is a construct completely made up. If you find yourself questioning your gender… please go outside, smell the flowers feel the sand.

I just feel sad. It feels like there's nothing I can do to convince 'opposers' that these are just people trying to live their lives. It's really depressing not being able to do anything material.

for me, i don't see being trans as "becoming a man," i see it as just becoming more like myself and that self just happens to be what people call "a man"

my trans-ness is an intrinsic part of my gender identity! i would never just want to be a Cis man. it's like why i bike everywhere even though it's waay easier to drive, i love the process and sightseeing and all the bumps in the roads, even if i end up falling off a few times on the way there lol

Holy fuck. I've never commented on one of your vids, but I feel extremely compelled to after having watched this. I started watching your videos back when I was in HS, so its been a hot minute. The whole video is amazing, but the 2nd half of the video owns my heart. I'm a trans person at the beginning of my journey at 21. The emotions and thought provocation evoked by your words ( bro, you have a way with words) was insane for me just now. Shed a couple tears ngl. I've not viewed gender so binary ever, a way of thinking I thought made me a freak as a kid. My decision to finally transition, a bit uncertain, but solidified with the reality of just how up in the air all this performance shit is. I'm making my move dude. Please just know your content is great, it has always been great, and that you have an audience that has grown right alongside with you. Ts means something to me.

Parents should of been charged with abuse , its just wrong that these predators get away with this abuse .

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I had a guy come to my house to help replace my windows, and he brought along his 6-year-old kid. That 6-year old introduced himself as a boy and had a boy name. His father said that ever since that child was around 3 never liked being female and didn't like their assigned female-name. 3 years identifying as a boy despite being born female. 3 years.

Transgender kids exist.

Holy Moly, this video has finally helped everything click into place in my head. Especially the latter half. Thank you so much for making this and sharing everything in such an expressive and eloquent way 💜

I will never understand. I couldnt live my life hiding my body. I dont care what gender i have im not hiding it or changing it. It is nature. I dont care.

I started at gender clinics at 12 too, now im 16 and im still not on hormones. i will never understand why people think kids can just rock up and get them for free

I’m 19 and I’ve watched my dad devolve from having “moderate” views on trans people to becoming a violent degenerate transphobe because of the agenda trump pushes, we don’t even live in America and ive lost my dad to MAGA
This video gives me some hope for the furture as much as I don’t have any hope at all

I was born on October 6th!!!!!!! But like… that’s crazy that u were an transgender kid!!

At one time pink used to be a boy color in the United States and it still is in some parts of the world.

Don’t push everyone in same direction ….changing your body for your desires of GNC is most likely one way street even if you regret it. There is often no way to go back.

Wanting to be opposite sex is not same as thinking you are the opposite sex……very important

If gender is stylizing body and presentation then why medicalize take hormones to change your body

Why so much focus on a gender label? You are sterilizing yourself losing sexual sensation in youth.

No one is going to see this, but if someone does, hey. I just need to get my thoughts on this out there, really.

I think the worst part of being trans is the shame I feel over it. Every time I come out, I'm saying that I'm just a silly teenage girl who fetishizes gay men and who doesn't know what's good for her. Everyone wants me to go back. I kind of want me to go back. I keep convincing myself that I'm actually cis and was brainwashed, that I have internalized misogyny, that being a girl isn't that bad anyway, that gender is fake, that I'm just a fujoshi that got too deep, that I'll grow out of it and regret losing my prettiness, that it's just a manifestation of my anorexia. I'm so scared that it is. And it's not like I always wanted to be a boy or anything, and really this all started when I got sexually assaulted, or when my mom died. The thing is, I know none of that is true. I know my trans feelings slowly started to creep up around puberty, that they started when I was a raving transphobe, that there was a million social pressures pushing me away from them, that I did everything I could to avoid them, that I love women and always have, and that I hate living as a girl and not as a boy. It's just the *shame*. Every time I come out, it's the world's most awkward thing, and I hate every single second of it, but then I'm just so relieved that they're not going to call me 'she' and my deadname anymore, and I both hate that relief and love it, because it means that this is real and that I can be a boy. I can grow up into a man instead of a woman. But it also means I'm never going to be normal. I'm never going to be fully loved by my family. They'll always see me as an object of ridicule. They'll always see me as a lost trophy daughter and a cautionary tale. Everything with them will always be awkward at best, and physically painful at worst. I'll always be a slightly androgynous female who desperately wants to be a boy for some fucking reason. Fucking brain chemistry, man.

Butler's theory, even though it's logically sound and makes perfect sense. Because then, either I can change this, or something made me this way. It makes my transness feel fake, and I hate feeling like my transness is fake. I've spent too long denying it and trying to change it for that to be true. I can't even engage with gender critically, because I'm so scared that it is fake and that I'm actually that silly deluded teenage girl falling for a social trend. Maybe that means it is. I don't know. A bunch of my friends are trans, and they're all 'really trans' in my head, while I'm just this fucked up thing that's completely failing at trying to be the thing it says it is. I feel like everyone can see that I'm a girl. It's so obvious.

I'm probably not even going to get to medically transition. There's like, what, a 25% chance that in a year adults will still be able to get HRT? So might as well be a normal girl, instead of a fucked up crazy deluded one, right? Makes logical sense. But I can't bring myself to detransition, and every time I consider it, it's as a punishment, and it makes me want to cry and curl up in a ball and dissociate. I don't even hate looking like a girl (besides the tits, screw the tits), it's just being seen as one.

Idk, I'm just messed up, too ashamed to talk to my cis therapist about it, too ashamed to talk to my cis friends about it, and unwilling to subject my trans friends to a torrent of internalized transphobia. So here you have it lol. Psychoanalyze me and tell me to detransition; I probably will.

Edit : oh yeah the 'real trans guys say they are boys fake ones say they aren't thing', massive point for my detransition haha. i can't tell what's internalized, nonbinaryism, me being sixteen, or cisgender-whatever-tf.

Can someone please explain why some people who are transgender want hormones change or get a surgically remove

I wish I had a fkng CLUE that trans was a thing when I was a kid
I thought it was a disney fairy tale and that I had to swallow and forget or I would be sad my whole life
and my parents my god they corrected so much behavior, I was terrified of them due to corporal punishment
kids should at least know what the options are so they can comfortably fit somewhere that doesn't make them suffer

this video made me realize that I am transgender instead of non-binary. i had doubts about my self-identification before though. thanks :3

Why you comparing trans people to civil rights ? And also why you mocking millennials

I am a genderfluid person, I have no strong connection with my birth gender (female) or feel connected with male gender. But as a kid I constantly felt out of place (along with just being an undiagnosed autistic) even now I still get body dysphoria on bad days because of my breasts are too big and that my face is too masc because I can grow a beard because of a disorder I have (PCOS)
(Edit: just fixing spelling and punctuation)

If you can be born with a disability what makes people think you can't have your conscience born in the wrong body. Yes it's true God doesn't make mistakes did it ever occur to anyone that God did this intentionally to get us to stop being so prejudices and learn to except and love one another. After all Jesus loves us unconditionally and that is the way God wants us to be to each other.

In the bible days people born with this did not have away to correct this and it was decided at that time that they would remain single and serve God, but knowledge has increased and now it can be corrected and should be. All knowledge comes from God and God wants all his children to have a good life. If you are truly a Christian then you would have the understanding about this if you read your bible.

God Loves You And So Do I. ❤

If we are created in God's Image and God is neither sex is it such a far stretch that we can be born in the wrong body .

I’m a cis girl with parents that are very conservative. I’ve recently been informed that some opinions I held were harmful and after finding out how said opinions affect trans people I’ve shifted my opinion on the two specific matters to society should build 3rd spaces for trans people so everyone can feel comfortable and have places to go to connect with people of their own gender, and that I won’t tell kids about trans people because I’m scared I’ll be harmed if their parents are transphobic rather than because it’s “political”. You’ve also now helped me realize that things I’ve been told about kids getting trans procedures done can do more good than harm assuming they aren’t doing it for peer pressure, but because of internal struggles. I’d like to thank you for making this video and helping me realize even more of the errors of my thoughts and what I’ve been told.

I went through gct... I completed female puberty. To a heternormative society, I am a detransitioner, but to me, I am not a person. My body isn't mine, it doesn't tell me when it is hungry, when it needs to urinate, or when I feel happy. My body doesn't listen to me, and I don't listen to it. We are in a loveless marriage, where when I go to sleep, my body rolls over and faces the wall, while my mind lies awake, staring at the ceiling. To society, I am a success. This is no life.

Medical system, because these doctors don't have good intentions what does an 8 year old need their balls cut off or their labia sown up for? These are the same doctors who will often ignore signs of physical or sexual abuse in other children. But will freely experiment on them without considering why a sexually abused child would have emotional problems, or a physically malnourished or beaten child would have violence problems.
But they are in a hurry to mess with your kids privates. Sure

You can research everything said here. It's not an opinion or world view it's destroying youth for experiments.

Omg, I skipped this video for so long
I was sure it was a video about de-transition, I would never guess you were born a gal o:

I guess I'll pitch in my interpretation of gender. The performance of gender requires three things. An identity, the instigator of performance. A body to perform with/as. And the act to perform.

Dysphoria is the difference between performing as and performing with. Performing as is like wearing regular clothes for most actions. Performing with can be like wearing all rough wool, just really itchy. But at its worst, however, it's like wearing all steel wool. You chafe, then you bleed. Nothing is fun, nothing is nice, nothing makes you happy.

As long as you are performing as, you can generally feel comfortable in most actions, regardless of their fem/masc association. The whole point of transitioning is to perform as, in all actions.

Like... Here's my thing:

I suffer a lot because... Well, a lot of people REALLY struggle to accept it and it feels I am trying to speedrun gender, like... When I first noticed it... I accepted it in like... I dunno, a week? (Of course that didn't avoid me overthinking it for the next couple of months, but the point is there)

I usually want to believe that it was something that was building up from a long time (which wouldn't be crazy, i started experimenting with
Genderswapping myself from two years before)

I also wasn't scared to tell my mother, or to... One day, after saving and buying the girl's school uniform, and after considering for a week, just changed my clothes in school like it was the most casual thing ever (of course, I was HELLA nervous, I was shaking, which is... Pretty weird from me)

So... Yeah, the only thing that has really made me hit the brakes was a promise I made to my mother, which was that i would let her process my identity up until my birthday (one month from now), but that I wouldn't give her more time (I deeply hate that promise after a month of doing it, dysphoria has been hitting like a truck for the past three weeks)

I dunno, I feel like i've done too much for only eight months after starting considering it, so... Yeah, that's my small yapping about myself and my doubts

You're a political issue to Trump

thank you

Trans men get often overlooked. Glad you are speaking out.

Me two minutes ago: “yeah idk about trans kids bc I want to support them but also I don’t think children should make major medical decisions”

Me now: “WHO THE FUCK SAID YOU HAD TO GET BARBIE INSTEAD OF BAKUGAN FOR CHRISTMAS THAT’S BULLSHIT I’LL KICK THEIR FUCKING ASS!!!”

Thanks for your thoughtful take. I appreciated what you have to say on this topic.

Am I required to affirm that you are a man? Why can I not say that you are a woman who identifies as a man?

Off topic but that photo in the bottom left of the frame in the closet looks like Abed Nadir from community

I had a feeling ever since I was 8 that something about me was different. I didn't figure out that what I had been feeling all that time was gender dysphoria until I had a gender identity crisis at 16 over trying out a bra for the first time. If there's anything I regret, it's not having the resources to know sooner, and not being able to transition sooner. I started HRT at 22, and thankfully I had a good doctor (not endo unfortunately, just a gp as far as I was aware), and she pretty much prescribed me with HRT a week after I had them do my blood work once I told her how long this had been going on for

Fun fact by the way, she found that my testosterone level was abnormally low pre-hrt, so low that she thought I was DIY'ing at first. I just found that really interesting, and it's honestly become kind of a source of both euphoria and hope. I am, always have been, and always will be, a woman. I don't care what my birth certificate says otherwise

Trans activist have ruined the trans community and ruined medical transition for minors. Going around and making it ok to transition kids ruined everything. I do think kids should wait to be an adult to medically transition. Medically professionals had a field day making money off kids and parents that don't know better. The studies that was being used to transition minors was false and straight up fabricated.

Im not trans but oh my god i loved hearing your story!

unrelated but you sound deppressed and happy at the same time

Honestly speaking... Those who know what transgender is would understand this all but... What about those who don't know what transgender is in itself... What about those who know what they are feeling but can't name it because of the lack of knowledge over gender itself... These people have quite a trouble to come out to those who don't know transgender exist... *Happens in many East sides countrys actually*